This night...a poem of sorts...

This night, might be the hardest that I've had to face, my mind's outta place, and there's tears runnin down my face.  Just get it over quick would be the best way, send a text message sayin "hey, this isn't gonna work" that's not me I wanna hold back the feelins that I feel inside I feel like my heart just died everybody knows I tried...tears on her face as she stares at me askin why.  The only thing that comes to mind is "toughen up", I kno this shit might seem rought, but you fucked this whole thing up. Scratch dat, that's a heartbreakin, that's like emotional murder cuz she's already cryin.  Starin at a hard decision face to face, and I really wanna wait, but this is too much to take...drop my head in my hands as leave, light up the 1st the L as a single man and breathe...

Feelin defeated in this all out war called love, I thought I was a soldier but I aint shit but a petty thug...stare at the ceilin and await the next day, it had to be a better way, but that's the way it is and all I can say is, I don't think I'll feel this way again too much pain within my tough skin seems paper thin...